haiku and bullets

Three weeks till Christmas (break)
Foster shower tomorrow
Things are looking up!

  • I’ve been trying really hard to find contentment in the here and now. I have a bad habit of wishing days, weeks, months away. And I don’t want to look back on this time and not have any lasting memories. Yes, I know my haiku really goes against what I just wrote. But a girl has to be excited about something, right?

  • I did not want to wake up this morning. I wanted to sleep the day away. Never mind those kindergarten students who are eager to talk to their friends learn. I wanted to pull the covers back over my head and sleep till my body told me to wake up, not the radio playing on our alarm. But I found myself repeating, “This is the day the Lord has made. I will rejoice and be glad in it.” And I got up. After hitting the snooze button. Twice.

  • We were (almost)parents… our first placement call came a week ago for a 1 month-old and 2 1/2 year-old. While it was a heartbreaking decision to make, we had to tell them no. At this point, with no parenting experience at all, that seemed like a lot to take on. We are licensed to take sibling groups, but have really been hoping and praying that we could start out with a single child. The call came the day after my birthday while we were on our way to my parents’ house to celebrate with a few of my siblings. Needless to say, after turning them down I cried off and on the rest of the way while D was silent. The placement coordinator was really sweet and reassured me that they “would get us a kiddo soon,” but our decision has weighed heavily on my mind ever since.

My (not a chance!) Christmas List:

  • This new camera to document our foster parent journey

Hey, a girl can dream!

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On my 25th birthday…

…which also happens to take place Thanksgiving week, I’m so thankful that:

I’ve got a great husband of 6 1/2 years who has been my best friend through some really tough times.
I’ve got a great support system of friends, who I can call on at any time, even when I’ve forgotten football tickets at home and still want to go to the game an hour late or when I get the itch to make a new wreath.
I’ve got a great family that I’m going to celebrate with tomorrow and meet my newest niece! My sisters are some of my best friends- I love spending time with them.
I’ve got awesome in-laws who are taking us out for dinner tonight. But that’s not the only reason they’re awesome. They have been such an encouragement.
I’ve got a sister-in-law who doubles as a really good friend.
I’ve got a home that I love, in a neighborhood that I don’t ever want to leave, in the suburb of a city that loves being weird. 😉
I’ve got a job that is tough and challenging, but I don’t know what I would do without my 5 and 6 year-old friends.
I wake up every morning with the hope that today, I could become a parent.

What are you thankful for?

This Week’s Top Ten

10. Celebrated my birthday at the faculty meeting
9. One of my student’s solved a problem on his own… using my words! It was so cute.
8. Same student informed me it was time to change another student’s color… he’s a clever one. He was just happy it wasn’t him needing to change his color!
7. Longhorn basketball! We beat Illinois last night, but lost to Pitt tonight. The team is young, but they’re playing their hearts out… maybe our football team can take notes?
6. Speaking of football, D and I are going to see them play FAU tomorrow. One of my student’s parents gave us tickets for my birthday.
5. I got bacon for my birthday… haha. That’s gonna need an explanation, isn’t it? Every Friday, my students and I have a conversation about the things you get to do on Saturday that you don’t on school days… basically, sleep in, watch cartoons, and eat a big breakfast. I always joke with them and tell them that if they have bacon for breakfast Saturday morning, they are to call me and invite me over. So today one of my students walks in with his gift for me- and it’s a package of bacon! It took me a few minutes to figure it out, but once I did, I laughed so hard.
4. My class blessed me with lots of good gift cards, balloons, flowers, etc. They really made me feel special.
3. One of my parents brought me lunch from Chick fil-a. Yum!
2. My close friends at work are throwing me a gift card foster/adopt shower. I got the evite yesterday and immediately felt so loved. The rsvps contained some of the sweetest comments. I’m really grateful for the family-like environment of my school.
1. We submitted our home study for a child who is available for adoption. Ahh! We’re not getting our hopes up at all because families all over the state will be submitting theirs as well, but the one thing we have working for us is that the office released the details of the child yesterday and home studies were due today. I say all that, and then have to remind myself that we are totally trusting God on this. As we were sitting by the computer last night, looking at the child’s picture and trying to figure out what to do, D finally said, “Les, if this is the child God has for us, then we’ll get it. If not, we won’t. Let’s just submit it.” Okay!

Oh yeah- and Thanksgiving break starts Monday! Happy Thanksgiving!

A Quarter in a Week

Four days and counting until Thanksgiving break. My school takes a week off for Thanksgiving, and for that, I am so thankful! 🙂 And a week from today, I’ll celebrate my 25th birthday. I might have told my students that they were the only class to get the whole week off since my birthday is on that Monday. I thought they only believed me for about half a second, but today when I asked again why we were taking the whole week off, one said, “For your birthday!” hehe.

As the holiday season rolls around again, I remember how I felt last year. How I just wanted to skip over the holidays. And family gatherings. And this year, while most of those around us know what’s going on, I set an expectation of being parents this holiday season. In case you haven’t noticed, we’re not. I’ll be the first to admit, I can throw a pretty good pity party for myself. But I also know that parenting is only a phone call away. So I’m trying to be content with this time we have together. To be grateful for each extra weekend we get to sleep in. For being able to come home and blog without interruption. For Friday night dinner out with friends.

And this Thanksgiving, I’m thankful that we know. That we’re no longer searching for answers. That I’m no longer on the monthly roller coaster. I’m thankful for the opportunities we’re going to have to care for a child, to love them, to welcome them into our home. Our family. Our hearts. And I’m praying for those out there who are searching for answers right now.

National Adoption Month

I’m sorry for being gone from my blog for so long… I’ve had a crazy week that I’ll have to write about in different posts. But for today, I just want to bring attention to November being National Adoption Month. Adoption has always been in the question (in that it wasn’t out of the question) as far as building our family. Even before the whole IF stuff.

And it’s November. Which is my birthday month. So that makes this even cooler. In case you were wondering…

In the beginning, I thought adoption for our family would mean international in addition to our biological children. While that’s not the path we’re currently on, this video really speaks to me.